Surat buat Asou (1 litre of tears) (┌_┐)

“Asou-kun,
There are somethings that i can’t say to you face to face, so i’m writing a letter.
For always being my side, thank you.
For always encouraging me, thank you.
You’ve found what you wanted to do, and are now working towards it, and seeing that makes me happy.
You’ll gain a lot of knowledge, and meet a lot of new people.
From now on, you’ll continue to leave on.
Your future is expanding by infinite proportions.
But in my case, it’s not the same.
In the future that i have left, how should i go about leaving it?
That’s it.
That’s all that there is..
There is nothing we can do about this defference.
Everyday i’m fighting against myself.
I’m worried and it’s painful to try to suppress such feelings, i’ve used up all my energy.
Here’s the truth.
It’s painful to be with Asou-kun.
Wanting to do this, wanting to do that.
Thinking that, if i didn’t get this disease then i would be able to do them all.
When i’m with Asou-kun, i’ll keep on wanting a dreams that can never come true.
Of course, it’s not Asou-kun’s fault.
But i’m envy you, and i feel sorry for myself.
It doesn’t matter what i do.
But with the me right now, i’m become more miserable.
If it’s stays like this, i won’t have the courage to live on.
Thank you for doing so much for me.
For saying that you like me, even the way i’m now, thank you.
I’m sorry that i can’t give you anything in return.
I can’t…
…see you anymore…”